This is the first time after so many months that I have considered myself productive. The last quarter of this year has been characterized by “overwhelm” in my world. I, however, find it paradoxical that this has also been the best season in my year. My consultancy business seems promising; I got a promotion with a different job description that excites me; I got into the strategic plan executive committee as a Grad student rep, and finally, I had my mum stay in my house for almost a month!

The thing with overwhelm is that it makes me really doubt myself. Am I good enough? Can I really do this? Have I taken on too much? Am I sure about what I am doing? All these are constant questions in my mind. Then the anxiety cripples in, suddenly, someone who would sleep like a log cannot sleep anymore! Please do not expect a happy ending because I am still in the “overwhelm” season.

Over the weekend, Feli and I got to go to Karura Forest for a walk and catch up. We ended up doing close to a 10 km walk, and it was such a relief. I have to appreciate the strides our friendship has taken, and I see growth. It was the first time in a while for me not to think about work, school, and family, a moment just to breathe. A moment to stop and look at how far I have come. An important moment while at it. Just to say that that one walk was the first step to recalibrating.

This is the first Christmas season I will be staying in my house by myself to decompress. After 27th, I will be on alone time. I have also prioritized my financial goals for the coming year, so I will be able to reflect and project what I want my outcome from that year to be. However, if there is anything the new disease has taught me is that whereas it is excellent to plan your life, it is fantastic to be flexible with the decisions. I will plan and relax and leave the rest to God.

Love and Light!